There was a time when I used to enjoy programming but its lost its meaning for me. I feel like I am so behind in the field that I can't do anything important with it, so the most I could hope for is getting a job writing code for a business that only cares about profits. I no longer have that childlike motivation to pursue something just for the sake of exploring it. I need some reason and meaning for doing it. And currently I feel a lack of purpose.
When I look at how technology has sped up our world so fast that it is nearly impossible to live a peacful existence and maintain a stable social family, it makes me hate everything about the only hobby I was ever good at. The only way that humans can keep up is to use artificial means of communication provided by the same beast that caused the problem in the first place. All of this is so that we can create even more material products.
The health field has benifited from technology. A person's life may by extended by many years, but chances are they would have lived a happier shorter life if technology never got this far. I would personally rather live a happy short life than a miserable long one. Everywhere I look I see human beings substituting technology for real life face to face communication. I can't help but feel that we've lost our way and went too far with it all. I think the most important thing in life is human bonding and technology has replaced that with horrible substitutes that only create the illusion of it. Were gradually becoming more isolated as individuals and I think it is no coincidence that the depression rate has been growing even before 9/11.
If anyone has any different perspectives I would love to hear them. As you can tell I am having a hard time finding anything positive on my own, so hearing your ideas will be of great help to me.