[Lazures]

Well I do write something nearly everyday.English is not my mother tongue ( native language ) however I'm pretty good at it.I just think I make too many grammer mistakes.Sorry for them.I just wanted to share one of them.

A monsters diary,

As you all know,my newly gained emotions are hurting me.As the sunlight fades in my wounds go deeper.As you talk,my chains are breaking.With every word of it I'm dying.And someone rises in me.I dont know what's that.I'm totally aware that none can enlighten me.None.I may be just wasting time to fight.Why ? I cant prove anything to anyone.Why fight ? Why resist ?
I should just let it go.But I cant.There is something in me that holds on to life.Why me ?
Look at them.They just laugh,continue their lives like nothing happens.[bleep] ! I just wanted to feel something ! Thats not what I want.These emotions are killing me.Just wanted to one of them.Just feel,laugh,love.I know I'll never be one of them.I'm diffrent.I'm a monster just pretending a human.Just trying to be one.
Why we should cling to our lives ? As there is nothing worth to fight.Sunlight fades in more,more and more.Wounds go deeper and deeper.Deeper and deeper.Even time cant heal these wounds.I'm going to be a murderer...of myself !

I'll post here more if moderators give permission.

Any suggestions,corrections will be appriciated.